1-19-2004
Well I am now officially finished with the long list of work I had to accomplish for today. This is good news because if you had taken one look at me this morning, you would have thought I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
I busted ass through my work, and now I am eating cheezy rice and relaxing.
I decided to post here today since I for the next three days, I am officially unable to enter my residence due to a mild termite infestation that is about to be remedied.
The timing of course, could not have been worse - seeing as this is the busiest week of the year for me at work - and I will have no home computer access for three days. I also had to pack up practically anything and everything edible or living and remove it from here. Makes you wonder if they are full of shit when they claim you dont have to wash your dishes once you come back - the "gas is odorless and dissipates to leave NO residue"
So, I am outta here tomorrow morning at 7 am with the three cats in tow. I have cat carriers for only one of them, so if you happen to be on the 101 freeway heading towards LA tomorrow morning and you see a green CRV swerving all over the highway - my plan to try and transport them without confinement has gone horribly awry. Just get out of the way.
All else in my little world is fine for now. I'm distracted with a lot of little things, so missing T is not feeling so bad today. He's in treatment, in case I forgot to mention it.
Unfortunately, last night he called to tell me they were smoking speed in his room, which just sucks - but whatever. He'll either do it or he wont. It's not up to me. I'm not choosing to spend a lot of time being worried about it.
Well, there is not much else I can think to write here, and I'm feeling a bit censored today, so I'm going to sign off.
Happy Monday, and MLK day too
-J
1-16-2004
I love the girl I work with. Her and I really get going sometimes with IM's - especially on hard days. This one made me laugh so hard, i decided to post it. Note that names (i changed her Real IM handle to a fake one) and all other work related and incriminating evidence have been removed. You'll still get the jist of it....
webgirleey: hey *bleep*
dIsGrUnTlEd: kill me dead.
dIsGrUnTlEd: i mean, hello.
webgirleey: yeah... i know
webgirleey: can you help me? IT appears that no one has given me
*bleep* access to *bleep bleep*. all that are appearing are *bleep* and
*Bleep*
webgirleey: *NAME* is not answering my im
webgirleey: i know you hate me
dIsGrUnTlEd: he's not here. he's off looking at his baby.
webgirleey: ohhhh
dIsGrUnTlEd: i don't hate you, i hate everyone else.
webgirleey: okay cool.
webgirleey: can you help?
dIsGrUnTlEd: have you ever talked to *insert female name* in the
*BLEEP” office? she's...
webgirleey: ha ha. i dont need a "BLEEP" - I need a gun
webgirleey: and a bottle of Cuervo
webgirleey: LOL
webgirleey: i'd be really great as a technical assistant all drunk
and unruly...
dIsGrUnTlEd: i wish. no, i meant have you ever talked to her? she's
a raging bitch.
webgirleey: no, never.. i'll remember not to now that you mention
it
dIsGrUnTlEd: try to avoid it unless absolutely necessary. she's
the *BLEEP’s* person over there, and *NAME* told me to call her about
this one person...when she returned my call, it suddenly became Crap on
"dIsGrUnTlEd" day. like it wasn't already. sheesh.
webgirleey: oh great. people like that need to have their coffee
spiked with quaaludes. i bet they would be a lot nicer, when they werent
asleep and drooling on their desks
dIsGrUnTlEd: ug. i just have to remember, i'm basically committed
through this fall, and then I can start looking for a new job. someplace
less horrible, like in a masochism parlor. anyway, you need to be added
as an *insert boring work terms here*?
webgirleey: yes i do. are you serious about finding a new job?
dIsGrUnTlEd: i am right now.
webgirleey: *NAME* mentioned something to me about the fact that
they may re-allocate my time and put me into the *BLEEP* dept helping
you, and doing more of tech support
webgirleey: I felt like telling him I would rather die than do
your job
webgirleey: no offense
dIsGrUnTlEd: yeah, i know. hey, fuck you.
dIsGrUnTlEd: (just kidding.)
webgirleey: i just know how annoyed i get with my people
webgirleey: I cant even imagine your life right now at work
webgirleey: arent they supposed to move you to something else?
dIsGrUnTlEd: days like today put me perilously close to the snapping
point. no, it doesn't sound like they are. i was hoping, but all they've
offered me so far is a great big shitburger.
webgirleey: oh god girl. at least you still have your sense of
humor
dIsGrUnTlEd: nah, i'm just genuinely bitter.
webgirleey: well then i hope you dont find it offensive that i
think you are hilarious
webgirleey: im sorry, in all seriousness that you are so tired,
"dIsGrUnTlEd"
webgirleey: you do a great job and if no one tells you so they
should be sliced up and then have salt pored on their wounds
dIsGrUnTlEd: not at all. hey, don't worry about it. a weekend spent
getting hammered on my roof and soaking up a little sun should do me good.
dIsGrUnTlEd: lol
webgirleey: thats right.... when life hands you lemons - make yourself
a stiff drink and throw em back at the fuckers who sent them your way!
dIsGrUnTlEd: seriously. anyway, I'll get you added asap.
webgirleey: okay, thanks. also, i need to have the 6 sections of
*BLEEP BLEEP* added
dIsGrUnTlEd: got it.
webgirleey: and I thank you profusely
dIsGrUnTlEd: anything for you. you are at the top of my priority
list. *insert female name* is at the very bottom, along with everybody
else I wouldn't spit on if they were on fire.
webgirleey: cool. remind me to never piss you off
dIsGrUnTlEd: noted.
1-15-2003
I was actually going to write in this tonight, but then I got all OCD on updating my pictures section. Now I am too tired to write anything even remotely interesting...
However, you can go check out the updated pictures section if you want!
1-7-2004
Happy New Year Everyone!
I am feeling okay today. I have been feeling okay all year, actually.
It's strange what happens when one takes their focus off another person and places it back on themselves. I am trying really hard to get a life this year.
I've made a new years resolution to do my absolute best to keep my nose in my own business. My life has become slowly focused on someone else and I dont like it anymore. I have a lot of good things happening in my life today, and I want to try and put that focus back on me - i am hoping it will lead to some more serenity on a regular basis.
I've also decided to get a roommate. My girlfriend Tina is moving in. Most likely on Feb 1. Financially, this is going to help me immensely. Being able to split the rent with another person will take a huge weight off my chest, and if I stick to my budget, I can be out of the red in three months of her living here.
I'm also happy since she and I are close friends, and although I have had some shitty experiences with friends and living together, I think her and I have a good enough understanding of each other and of our boundaries.
Soooo - change is upon me. :-)
I'm off to a meeting now, so I'll cut this short. However, if you did not notice, I have a new daily read. Gina Cochina, and her serious and important thoughts - she never ceases to make me laugh. Go pay her a visit...